Consider Me

Consider me
Guilty as charged
Living large
Being human
Making decisions
The best I can
Trying always to see
And understand
Another human’s condition
I’m on a mission for clarity
Sincerity
Hoping that caring won’t bury me
This is a fragile state
Conscious existence
Consistent in the madness it makes
And I’m placing myself in the hot iron core
Letting go of today
And the days before
What else can I do now?
It all went up in a flash
And I made a mad dash for something better
It’s about the adventure
The test
Put your best foot forward
Open your arms to the rest
And when the clouds come heavy
And the cold air stings
Dig to the deepest part of yourself
Will it
And sing

Butterflies & Fire

Deliver me on sliver platter,
to the sunset behind the trees.
Let the running water rest,
before it's set to sea.

Now lay the hour glass-
on it's side,
preceding break of day.
That will help you,
to use your wings,
sing loud,
and fly away.

There's nothing,
like a first time,
baby.
All butterflies and fire.
Just perched in pride,
for eternity,
like a bird,
on a wire.

Rain fell down,
then got up.
Started chasing the sun.
Finally, when we found night,
we found some fun.
A daisy grows,
between the cracks,
of a cobble stone road,
but careful not to step on her,
and break her little bones.

There's nothing,
like a first time,
baby.
All butterflies and fire.
Perched in pride,
for eternity,
like a bird,
on a wire.

In Africa,
a tiny lions cub,
suffers a silent roar.
But little ones,
well they grow up-
Leave the nest to explore.
So candy canes,
jelly dreams,
and a soda pop lullaby.
The clouds became so like home,
I forgot to try.

There's nothing,
like a first time,
baby.
All butterflies and fire.
Just perched in pride,
for eternity,
like a bird,
on a wire.

Bird on a wire.

Trampoline

Wish I was bouncing on your trampoline
Like we did last week
Wish I was sittin in your kitchen
Watching your sisters eat

Wish you were driving my car
Taking me to crocker park
Toolin’ around in your home town
Showin me who you are

Put your wig on me
I would wear a flat top
Put your wig on me
I can be who you want
Put your wig on me
I would wear a bouffant
Put your wig on me
Show me what you’ve got

You didn’t have to hand me
That big old bag of lies
Can’t promise to understand you
But I can promise to try

I wish you’d give me that chance
Or maybe just one more dance
We could have fun, shoot hoops in the sun
Forget about romance

Put your wig on me
I would wear a flat top
Put your wig on me
I can be who you want
Put your wig on me
I would wear a bouffant
Put your wig on me
Show me what you’ve got

I just wanna be your friend
Got a helping hand to lend
What’s a girl gotta do
To prove she cares for you

Now I’m just living my life
And you can do as you choose
But I’d say, if you walked away
You really would lose

Someone who truly cares

Pinker Part of Day

This is a song for the pinker part of day
The sun is tired, he’s gone away
Got a cup of coffee and I got my cigarette
A beautiful background and a Brooklyn silhouette

Certain times I just know
I don’t have to ask and you don’t have to tell me so
Certain times, it’s all clear
I don’t have to know why to know that I’m here

This is a song for the words I can’t say
So I won’t try to talk, I’ll just play
And let the music wander itself right
From the other side of day to gentle sweet goodnight

Certain times I just know
I don’t have to ask and you don’t have to tell me so
Certain times, it’s all clear
I don’t have to know why to know that I’m here

So I’m lost in wonder at the beauty of the sky
The brilliant color exploding in my eye
The world has it’s own way to prove
To ignore it’s splendor is the only way to lose.

Certain times I just know
I don’t have to ask and you don’t have to tell me so
Certain times, it’s all clear
I don’t have to know why to know that I’m here

Cut my Hair

Met you one day
Jumped off a cliff
We said good-bye
I didn’t know if
We’d meet again
Or just once in life
I never know
But that’s all right

A year or so on
You knocked on my door
I let you in
You slept on my floor
I showed you my town
And you rocked it for me
That was the last
of you that I’d see

Like a bright flash in the sky
The way the days pass me by
There’s no one and nothing that’s mine
Still that’s no reason to cry

Met you one day
Sat in your chair
I made you laugh
While you cut my hair
The timing was bad
So I left you that day
Cursing myself
While I walked away

Then the Earth turned around
And new times came on
I found my way back
To that old salon
Luck had you there
But I guess it was fate
You had your plans
And didn’t want to date

Like a bright flash in the sky
The way the days pass me by
There’s no one and nothing that’s mine
Still that’s no reason to cry

Met you one day
Guitar in your hand
You played it slow
So I’d understand
I took your cue
And started to strum
Kept on until
I’d made an album

I credit you
With so much of my skill
You may not think of it
But I always will
And I can still hear your voice
When I close my eyes
Telling me to go
Pushing me to try

Like a bright flash in the sky
The way the days pass me by
There’s no one and nothing that’s mine
Still that’s no reason to cry

Walking

Every step I take’s a chance at winning
Every breath is like a new beginning
Hold my head up each time I open my door
Throw myself outside to get me some more

And I am
Walking

I got good shoes and some comfortable socks
My feet are hungry for some grit city blocks
Stride with pride through a brand new day
Anyone, anything could come my way

And I am
Walking

It’s all I do, I stay on my feet
I never stick to the streets I know
I just go, amigo, cause my gut does me right
Takes me every time, where I thought it might
If only given control, I was a captive soul
Of my own fear, but fear disappear,
tiny dynamite is here.
Stay clear now for the fight
Cause with this new insight I’m gonna be downright
Unstoppable, a raging bull
Through the china shop of things to be afraid of
I’m lookin’ for all kinds of music and ways to make love
And I will search anywhere, high and low
Flow with a steady pace
Meander through this place

And I am
Walking

What you got today new york city?
It could be ugly, it could be so pretty
I’ll keep on marching and I will not abate
I made a promise to the empire state

And I am
walking

Buffalo Outlaw

Walked out in the cold night
Home under his feet
Along Elmwood Avenue
Turned down a side street

Tried to hide his thoughts
‘neath the pure white snow
They may not figure it out
But he would always know

He’s a Buffalo outlaw
Shadowed with doubt
He found a way in
Then he had to get out

Been living on emptiness
Chasing tails of dreams
His world looks all right
But things aren’t what they seem

He’s watching his footsteps
He’s watching the ground
Could it all cave in?
Is the sky falling down?

He’s a Buffalo outlaw
Shadowed with doubt
He found a way in
Then he had to get out

the key turned so easily
like it was meant to be
once he got himself inside
he wanted to let it ride
then one door became two
there was nothing he couldn’t do
curious and gratified
he wanted to let it ride

It all happened so fast
Like it always does
He wasn’t worried at all and then
… he was

He jumped in with both feet
Now it’s over his head
He thought he was breaking out
But he got buried instead

He’s a Buffalo outlaw
Shadowed with doubt
He found a way in
Then he had to get out

He’s a Buffalo outlaw
Shadowed with doubt
He found a way in
Then he had to get out

Continue

It’s the smell of her hair
The smile she wears
Stunning swirl
A scared little girl

It’s the smell of her hair
Urging me elsewhere
A burst of light
Before the night

I bet you don’t even know
What it is that I get about you
And I will see it through

Arm’s length you will push against me
with all your strength, but I’m stronger than you
and I will continue…

To be there
So many times you tell me
that you don’t care
Well, I do…
And I think you do too

It’s the smell of her hair
Fall asleep lying there
Live in a dream
Lost in a moonbeam

It’s the smell of her hair
I could be anywhere
Buried in bliss
At the brink of a kiss

I bet you don’t even know
What it is that I get about you
And I will see it through

Arm’s length you will push against me
with all your strength, but I’m stronger than you
and I will continue…

To be there
So many times you tell me
that you don’t care
Well, I do…
And I think you do too

I bet you don’t even know
What it is that I get about you
And I will see it through

Arm’s length you will push against me
with all your strength, but I’m stronger than you
and I will continue…

To be there
So many times you tell me
that you don’t care
Well, I do…
And I think you do too

Dead in the Eyes

Alone on the couch with just my thoughts
I try to get up but I am caught
I always knew you would break my heart
But I didn’t think I would fall this hard

I just can’t believe it went so far
I have no idea who you really are
You looked me dead in the eyes
And like it was nothing you told me lies

It was always unclear how things would go
You always made sure that I didn’t know
And worse than you not wanting me
Is being the fool that I could be

I thought at least we were friends
And it would all work out in the end
But what do I need with a friend like you
I don’t even think you know what is true

Now that I know its goodbye
It’s no longer worth it for me to try
My mind is twisted my heart is spent
The crooked game is where my love went

You have nothing real to offer me
And I should be happy to finally see
I should count my blessings and walk on by
But it’s just in my nature to agonize

Now there’s nothing left for me to say
The best I can do is take myself away
It’s not like me to make this wish
But I hope someday you cry like this

I just used to love to make you smile
For nothing in return it was worthwhile
And it really is too goddamn bad
That you didn’t realize what you had

Alone on the couch with just my thoughts
I try to get up but I am caught
I always knew you would break my heart
But I didn’t think I would fall this hard

I just can’t believe it went so far
I have no idea who you really are
You looked me dead in the eyes
And like it was nothing you told me lies

I Don't Care

I’m so clearly a woman
But some people think I’m a man
They can’t see past the baseball cap
And tattered baggy pants

They have to look closely
And spend some time
But patience is a virtue
And they’ll be pleasantly surprised

I didn’t always know it
There was doubt in my mind
Afraid of where I settled
When left unsupervised

Pushed myself so far
In a direction that was wrong
Did my hair and make-up
Just to feel that I belonged

It took long
To find my way
I had to let it all go
To be who I am today

I don’t care what they think of me
With a light upon my shoulder I’m not scared to be
The woman I am, she’s all I’ve ever known
She’s the solitary beacon that will guide me home

Life got confusing
Like wearing high tops with a dress
My boys were all my buddies
Girls I liked much less

But something happened to my pals
After soccer practice
I’d bring them home to kick the ball
all they’d want to do is kiss

Since I didn’t want to do it
They called me a freak
When I didn’t beg forgiveness
They threw stones at me

So I tried to find some chics
With like mentality
And I found a lot of chics
And they sure did like me

Slowly
I started to see
The grand benefit
In individuality

Now I really am a phoenix
Reborn and re-done
The perfect combination
Of a daughter and a son

Feminine when I’m feelin it
When it’s real and when it’s fun
But the side I like when I’m kicking back
Is a bit more masculine

Ain’t nothing wrong with the way I hang
In fact it’s so right
Just go ahead and try to lie
Say I don’t look good tonight

I don’t care who you are
Boy, girl, tranny, fag or dyke
None of us knew any different
When we were riding on our trikes

We could all be godlike
We could all be free
We should all be true
To our own identity

Let There Be Love

Lucky
I am so lucky
And blessed
Proud
Of all my friends
Cause they are the best

When I was weak
And could not stand
They all stood for me
Gave me their hands

Let there be love
In everyone’s life
Like all the love
I have in mine

Strength
I see such courage
And grace
Awe
Is what you’ll see
When you look at my face

The only reason I’m anything
Anything at all
Is cause of the people
On who I can call

Let there be love
In everyone’s life
Like all the love
I have in mine

Lucky
I am so lucky
And blessed
Proud
Of all my friends
Cause they are the best

The only reason I’m anything
Anything at all
Is cause of the people
On who I can call

Let there be love
In everyone’s life
Like all the love
I have in mine

Sweet N Low

Sunrise makes me think of you
So do funny cartoons
Hotels and Taco Bells
And lazy afternoons

We could laugh and dance all night
Waiting for the dawn
Or lie in bed eating diner food
With the TV on

If you would be there
You’d find me there
I can’t go wrong
If I write this song
For you

Anytime, any day
Any city or state
Any moment I spend with you
I appreciate

Your clear blue eyes and your secret smiles
Bring me to my knees
My head tells me you’re something else
And my heart agrees

If you would be there
You’d find me there
I can’t go wrong
If I write this song
For you

Sweet n low
There’s not far to go
To get to something real
Let down our guards
It wouldn’t be so hard
To follow what we feel

On the road, driving in the car
With no radio
A thousand miles could pass us by
And I wouldn’t even know

Fast food for every meal
I would still feel fine
French fries and Diet Cokes
Taste like brie and wine

If you would be there
You’d find me there
I can’t go wrong
If I write this song
For you

If you would be there
You’d find me there
I can’t go wrong
If I write this song
For you